Hmmm….a “dark wood”, “going outside”, expressing yourself to the world in the midst of your own fears…These were just a few of the thoughts that permeated my mind after reading Ruby’s post yesterday. Undoubtedly, everyone’s answer to this question will be quite different based on the life experiences and perceptions. Ruby – you did an excellent job of writing about one word (ie. “outside”) in a few minutes too, by the way (impressive….thank you).
So, what does the term “going outside” mean for me? Well, a number of things…to name just a few:
1. The literal – As described by Ruby. I am a very outdoorsey kind of lady. I ground myself and my energy in nature. Thus a walk, hike or jaunt through a park or nearby wood/or quiet mountain path is a necessity for me to “reset my gears” so to speak. When I was a child, my mom could be frequently heard telling this energetic child (and my sibling) to “get outside and burn some of that energy…!” I still do that to this very day (“I get outside and burn some energy!” but I also “Get outside to gather some energy too!” Lol!). A walk along a river or mountainside is just what this soul needs to reconnect, reattune and realize. I also find that many answers to some of my life’s questions have come from these Thoreau-esque walks. I am a walker by nature.
2. The figurative – Like most people, I challenge myself quite regularly by stepping “outside of myself.” I have found it a challenge to balance my INTP personality type (fusing my need to be introverted, self-aware and rational with a need to be “feeling”, extroverted and outgoing so that I am connected and useful to the energy of the Universe). I guess this means that I have had to learn how to balance (and enjoy) being a contradiction to myself! Thus stepping “outside of myself” is almost a daily, regular occurrence for me! I’m not sure if this makes any sense to anyone! I used to find myself confusing. An enigma. Now, I have learned to love that enigmatic part of myself. I tune into my own unique rhythm and listen to myself – and when “myself” says that it’s time to “step outside myself.” I do.
What does “going outside” of myself mean for me? Well, lately, it has involved both an internal (“going inside”) and external (“going outside”) process (an emotional and mental “detox” of sorts). Like others that are on a spiritual journey, I find myself having to delve deep within myself (beyond the scars and wounds) to the pit of my negative emotions and feelings (pain, anger, fear, desire and sorrow to name just a few). I acquaint myself with these “critters” and allow myself a chance to familiarize myself with their “natural history” (origins, habits and evolution). Then, I allow myself to set them free until all that is left is peace, love, understanding, happiness and bliss. The process has allowed me to see myself as a filter of types…thus, I understand the importance of purging oneself of the toxins result from human drama (which is essentially projected and perceived reality – an illusion that I have fed into). This process of cleansing has allowed me to draw much more positive energy in my life (because there is more room now that the negativity is disappearing!). I feel like I can direct my energy a little more effectively now. However, I do realize that the process is ongoing, difficult and I have MUCH to learn…but it’s a definite start for me.
So, if you read through this excerpt, I thank you for your time, your interest and your compassion. I wish you well on your own spiritual journey (we have a wonderful Goddess community and some very attuned male-folk too!). There is a seeker in everyone (male and female). Some of our lights are brighter than others, but we ALL have the capability of helping to light each other’s flames. We ALL have light and wisdom to share with one another. We are gifts to one another.
ps. Thanks again Ruby…